Friday, April 10, 2009

Let Go

There has been a lot going on with me lately and it's really becoming very overwhelming. I'm at the point where I have absolutely no clue what to do anymore. Am I at breaking point? Not quite; but if things continue to get worse, I probably will reach that point sooner or later. I know you have to go through things to become stronger, but honestly, when does the struggle end? When does the hurt cease? Does it ever? I truly hope so because I honestly don't know how long I can deal.

I've been talking to my mom a lot lately about the things going on in my head, which is something that I rarely do. It's not that my mom and I aren't close, it's just the simple fact that I'd rather keep things inside and to myself instead of discussing things. I don't do too well with constructive criticism. But we talked, and she told me that
I just need to let that shit go or else it'll get the best of me in the very worst way. It's not as easy as it sounds but it's got to be done. Cus I really don't wanna feel this way anymore.

So I apologize for the lack of posts and communication with you all. I know I've apologized 021380123801380130 times for this but I'm asking everyone to bare with me on this. I'm working hard to get through all of this and I just need a little patience. -sigh- Idk.


kmx. said...

I know exactly how you feel; I'm a fighter, but sometimes things get to heavy to bear. I don't usually worry about too many things, but when I do, it all comes at ONCE!

Anyway, keep your head up love. There's no definite as to when everything will get better again, just hang in there.

Tashia said...

Twice in my life I've reached the ultimate breaking points. Twice. It felt like I'd hit the ultimate low, no matter how worse things got. I felt like I was battling things inside myself, outside myself, BY MYSELF. No one could help me.. not the way I wanted my problems to be solved. I just want to say that I understand you even though I don't know your situation. I know how that feels like and I still have healed scars from my past situations. But that's the thing..those scars are now healed, and I promise you that whatever you're going through will die down and you will heal. After that the only way for you to go is up.

Stay strong sweetie and just roll with the punches until everything has passed.

supreme. said...

it's alright babe, no need to apologize. <3

PORCHE ` said...

I've been there several times and I understand where you are coming from. You are a strong female though so I have faith that you will come out on top.

x o x o, PORCHE'

Miss.Stefanie said...

This feeling is too close to home. Sometimes you have to let it go in order to gain it all. It will feel so good when you let go. Trust.

Teems said...

currently in the same place

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Laur said...

things will get better.

I've been there.. where it like I'm tired of this shit -- when does it end?

unfortunately, sometimes it will get worse before it gets better.

but it WILL get better, with time.

Just put on some good music keep to yourself when you need to and talk about it when you need too and ride it out

itll pass girl :)

JuJu said...

ugh; i am so there with ya!

stay up boo - i love ya!

BrittNicole said...

yes love i think its everyone at this point. well at least every female i know where yu are coming from and its hard to blog alll the time and have all that on yur mind cuz its like yu have so much to say but cant get it out. smh yes i know