Monday, February 23, 2009

So Gone...


Its been real, but I am taking a break from the Blogger scene. Wrote enough to last for a while. Most people just read with one eye open and one eye shut anyway. It takes a third eye to comprehend if you aren't willing to use two you will leave the third eye blind. Let the old blogs marinate for a while, when your ready to fire up that grill for the meat of conversation, I'll bring out the dessert...cause i don't want to spoil your appetite lol. Time for more observation, less dictation.

Know what happens when you try to dissect what is already living to prove that it is alive. By the time you get the answers you seek; it dies.

I'm still gonna be reading and commenting blogs so don't get it twisted, homie.

Saturday, February 21, 2009

Thursday, February 19, 2009

Dark Sleep

Strayed from the straight path… impatiently plucked many dandelions before their time

Trampled the hearts of many lilies…smothered and weeded out many violets striving to find

Something soft and delicate in the rough wilderness…within a world of entangling vines

Thorn’s piercing my heart, for the soft touch of the wild rose petals in bloom to be mine

Wild Red rose…a blazing sun in the dessert, provoking the thirst that only its sweet nectar could quench

Sought only a quench when dancing, dehydrated, beneath the sun rays...and ended up drenched

Devoured the waterfall, while suffocating on sand when feasting off of the mirage inch by inch

Voyaged through the Unknown, oblivious to the name of love carved, by a previous drifter, into a man-made bench

Figured I may as well sit for a while, slowed down and began to notice the beauty of nature often neglected in the obsession for something so surreal

Fought in my sleep to wake up to a dream, fatigued, I was no match for the nightmare that left me in a state of paralysis, couldn’t move only think of the pain numbing my will

Silently screaming “JESUS”, fearing that some demonic force had me pinned…for what was once a nurturing crib had become a suffocating hearse…buried alive in my own conviction

Beneath soft red roses with piercing thorns, that only bloomed to puncture the heart, left to slowly bleed all alone in this cruel, dark, and lonely dimension

Where prince charming creeps in the Cinderella's window to rescue her, only to deliver her to the inferno within a throbbing temple, in which an evil queen sits on his heart ruling the throne

Where brother and sister come into the gingerbread house they call home all alone, and the evil witch that bore them seeks to bake and devour them til their innocence is gone

Where you were free to find your own way, pick up all your heart desired, and all your heart desired you were forbidden to keep

Felt a gentle shake from an angel…and I awoke for the first time, finally escaping the dark sleep…

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Boredom Kills

Lmfao. We was bored; what can I say? And noooooo I didn't rip my pants lol. They were like that already lol. That's why there's something under them lol.

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Valentine's Day

First let me start off by saying HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY! Yeah yeah, enough of that! Lol. Am I hating? Hell to the nah. But anyway, back to the purpose of this post. I ended up going to the movies last night to see Friday the 13th with the homaaaays lol! Review coming soon. But anyway, after the movie I ended up going straight home and going to sleep. When I woke up this morning, I found a few GIFTS! I was excited lol. A) because I don't have an official Valentine. B) because who doesn't LOVE gifts lol. I already had a feeling who it was from, but was and still am kinda confused because we're not on the best terms right now. Like...we're not even talking at the moment so for him to bring me gifts is beyond me. But anyway, I couldn't call him because I don't have my phone and I don't know his number by heart. Currently waiting for him to call me but I doubt that he will for some reason. I'll just call him when my boy comes over later since he has his number. But here are the pics of my lovely gifts.

ANYWAY, I was reading Ms. Tiana's blog earlier and saw her sexay poem for wrote for the hubster. Jealous...lowkey lol. But I was inspired to write a little something. Hers is much better but I don't really care. I was in the writing mood and decided to write something. Oowwwwwwww!

-Emotional Nudity- Take your soft and loving hands and remove the mantle of mistrust from my shoulders. Softly unbutton the silken gown of regret from my skin. Come my love and remove the veil of heartache from my face and kiss these lips that were ordained only for you. Confiscate the jewels of deception from my arms neck and ears-discard my fears. Feel the fabric of the chemise of my misgivings and set me free from it. Kiss my naked shoulders honeyed with newfound faith liberated from doubt and the threat of neglect and obscurity. My darling go further south and remove the thongs of this world's hatred and prejudice from my hips and slide them slowly down to the floor where they can be no more. Undress me until I am stripped bare of the world's evil and tainted essence until like the day of my birth, I emerge beautiful untouched- unpoisoned. Let this nude daughter of Eve stand before you liberated from the negative-Pure and positive and free to melt into your loving embrace.

Thursday, February 12, 2009

The Poet's Pen

Swaddled within the poet's pen
Lies imagery born of perception
Beheld and defined through the mind
Vivid from its inception.

Though once a mere abstraction
Liquid thoughts now take design,
No longer off and fleeting
But blissfully confined.

Drawn by strokes of artistry,
Imbued by life, impassioned,
Depicted via verbal wit,
By lyric phrase enfashioned.

Words, glazed and aged writ upon page
Refined though deliberation
Endowed to speak of themselves
In poetic celebration.

Thus the poet's pen does send
And pierce the imagination
To faithfully record
Life's sheer exhilaration.

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Soulmate

SHALL I DISCOVER COMFORT IN ANOTHER'S ISOLATION
BE MOLDED BY THE INFERNO OF TRUTH INTO ONE KEY
THAT UNLOCKS THE TRANSLUCENT DOOR THAT STANDS BEFORE...
MY SOULMATE AND ME

ENTER INTO HIS TEMPLE, AND BECOME A PART OF HIS DOMAIN
FEARING NOTHING BUT GOD BECAUSE HE'D DO THE SAME
NOT ASHAMED TO CALL OUT YASHUA'S NAME
THE REVELATION WOULD BE INGENIOUS, BORDERLINE INSANE

HOW GLORIOUS WOULD THAT BE TO BE LOST IN DEPTH OF SOMEONE ELSE'S EYES
FINALLY WIPE OFF THE CAMOUFLAGE MASKING A YEARNING HEART IN DISGUISE
THIS HARDCORE SHIELD THAT EMBODIES ME, TENDER HEART AND HARD DEFENSE
BEFORE WE'D MAKE LOVE WE'D BE SURE THAT THE FOUNDATION OF "WE" MADE SENSE
CONFRONT THE IMPERFECTIONS, NEVER CONCEAL BUT HEAL EACH FLAW
ENSURE OUR DESIRES AND NEEDS WERE FILTERED THROUGH THE RIGHTEOUS LAW
ONE SOLDIER, OUR CHEST SHIELDED BY GRACE AS WE BATTLE WITH SHARPENED WISDOM
GLIDING SWIFT AS A STALLION...GALLOPING UNTIL WE FULFILLED THE MISSION

FOR WHEN THE MOON BLEEDS AND MOUNTAINS CRUSH AND SEAS DROWN OTHERS
WE'D BUILD A FORTRESS AROUND OUR EMPIRE HARD AS A DIAMOND CLEAR AND PURE
OUR LOVE WOULD RISE, FOR TWOS SHALL BECAME ONE AGAIN...WHOLE... OUR LAST INHALED BY OUR FATHER AND BREATHED FOR AN ETERNITY
INSCRIBED IN THE BOOK OF LIFE FOR ALL THAT WE'D ENDURE

*I left the caps lock on. It was an accident though. I was on a roll when I realized it and didn't wanna stop typing to turn it off and plus I was halfway done with it. So I also didn't feel like typing it all over again. So work with me, loves. Lol.

Monday, February 9, 2009

Shopping pt. 2


So this is the second part in my 2 and a half day shopping spree. I'm gonna be quite honest, I DIDN'T buy all of this myself; my mom and mi abuelita went shopping with me as well. I'm pretty spoiled lol. I can truly and honestly care less how people feel about that. All I'm gonna say if you hatin then mind ya bidness and press Alt+F4, bruh. And to answer your question, Toy, I did order some shit from Karmaloop and got some stuff from Dr. Jay's that I have yet to take pics of. Didn't really feel like to be honest lol.

In other news, I saw my "friend" last night before he went back to Syracuse and we talked. Well, I did most of the talking because I had a lot that I needed to say about how he's been acting. He said that he understood and admitted that he WAS acting like a damn child and said he'd chill with the bitchassness. Yeah, he said it. And that's all I really wanted. That and for him to get his act together. After we talked and resolved this whole thing, he told me he wanted to take me SHOPPING! Can't buy my love or happiness but it damn sure will make me smile! Lol. Don't get me wrong, I'm no gold digger. Mami's makin bank and I can take myself shopping; don't get it twisted, boo. But I'm not gonna tell him NO! Especially if he WANTS to. Plus, Valentine's Day is coming up lmfao. Sooooo I might take him up on that offer.

I wasn't in the mood to make any posts about the Grammy's and I DON'T wanna read any blogs about it. Sorry. And I damn sure don't wanna read any blogs about CB and Rhianna. Smh. I'm tired of this whole situation.

Sunday, February 8, 2009

Shopping pt.1

I finally got some shopping done on Friday and ended up spending waaaaay more than I needed to. Like it REALLY hurt my feelings. I guess that's the consequence for having expensive taste. I ended up buying things from Chanel to Gucci from Nars to MAC. I went crazy. I think I'm gonna use this post for my necessity grabs and the next one is for all of the other stuff that I bought. I won't be shopping again for a loooooooooong time lol.







Friday, February 6, 2009

The Cheesecake Factory


Today has been just bleh. I've been busy all day and now I can truly and honestly say that I'm beat. I'm ready for this day to be over. But on a better note, I went to the Cheesecake Factory for lunch! Omg, it was wonderful! Lol. I ordered the cajun shrimp pasta and got the godiva chocolate cheesecake. It was absolutely amazing lol. But that's all lol. I have to get back to work.

Thursday, February 5, 2009

The Matrix

Hmm...what's on my mind? I always felt that its better to know the truth than live a lie...but when you live in a matrix, the senses can easily be numbed by the subconscious. The reality we live is fantastic. Ever watch the Matrix? Imagine that your body is like an Xbox remote but this one would cover your soul like a full bodied remote and trigger all of your senses so that you could feel everything in the world that you enter once the power is on. You can even interact with other people playing the same game, kind of like logging online and playing with other people right. Well, imagine if you were put into this game world and you could not come out until your mission was complete. The game is so advanced, that your given a manual to use throughout your time in this game world and its so serious you have guides, signs, and access to more manuals. You are forewarned at the beginning of the game to remember this is just a game world...even though you can see, touch, taste, smell, hear, and even feel things while interacting with other people playing with you...this is just a game and you must always remember that you are to do your mission and come back. If you allow yourself to get caught up in the game to the point you let yourself go and no longer want to leave the game, your soul will be trapped in the game and you will be shut down when the power is swtiched off.

Think about that and think about the world we live in. The "villains" in the game that distract you from your mission; how the senses may cause your conscience to fry out to the point you grow cold and act like an animal because you are no longer connected with your will power. Think about how isolated you may feel around people that have sold their souls and become zombie like...driven by the candy-coated poisons of this game world that your were forbidden to touch by the manual. Would you disguise yourself as a zombie to avoid the villains attacking you, or would you fight against the current to avoid the waterfalls...or simply take the safe route and walk along the stream on the path that the manual has mapped out.

Just food for thought.

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Boy BYE!


My "friend" left a gift on my desk at work while I was on my lunch break. But why don't I care? Why am I not excited or moved by the gesture?

























Simply because I DON'T GIVE A FUCK.....YOU! ;) That's how I feel about it, bruh. Is that so wrong? -shrug-

Disclaimer: It's not that I'm not "feeling" him; because I am. Despite the childish games he plays when it comes to certain things, he's a really nice guy and I enjoy his company...at times. BUT I can't deal with the kiddie games so, yanno. But I still say fuck him; I'm mad at his childish ass. Hmph.

Lo Siento


That's my lunch, btw! Lmao. I used my BB for that pic, so that's why it looks BLEH! But it's a burrito bowl from Chipotle! Anyway...these past 2 weeks I can honestly say that I've been on an emotional rollercoaster. One day I'm happy as hell, singing and whistling nd shit lol. Then a few days later I'm pissed; in the worse mood ever. I don't wanna be bothered, don't feel like blogging or reading/commenting anyone else's blogs. Got to the point where my mom told me to stop being such a bitch. Bipolar much? Lol naaaah. Just going through a lot right now. So I want to thank everyone for tolerating my bitching and whatnot. And a special SPECIAL thanks to Dom for putting up with me lol. I know I've been acting like a big baby lately, but you have yet to judge me or tellin me to shop whining and I appreciate it mucho, boo. So I'm back on my grind. Def gonna get back into reading and commenting more blogs. AND posting more interesting shit lol. No more whining...for a while. But okay, I'm on my lunch and I'm tired of multitasking lol. Soooooooo "I'll hollaaaaa!"

Sunday, February 1, 2009

SB Sunday

So today the Superbowl comes on. I'm semi-excited about it. I just really wanna go to this SB party for the food. Hell, just being honest. BUT I don't want the Steelers to win. Whatever though. Yall have a great day. Obviously I'm not in the mood for a long and drawn out post.