Wednesday, January 21, 2009

I Didn't Resist It



Darkness sheds light, eyes tight til the lid on this life is tight and I am no more

No longer pondering what it once existed for

Yet the questions rise and expand with the distance, searching through stars and the heavens and beyond…the soul sours

Towards the light years of the life force in which it is in hopes of being absorbed

What am I, did I ever exist, when I was ever so shape-shifting

Even now I ponder what is pending, what I am facing, am I dead or finally living

Free from the past and the yearning of such cause I’m conscious of being but not the being that once existed

Conscious, not logical or emotional cause when my heart and brain vanished, thoughts and feelings did with it

Yet I exist, though I no longer have my 5 senses

Yet conscious of love, fear, and the will to live rather than diminish

Into a state of unconsciousness some define as non-existence

Welcoming the unknown rather than approach it with resistance

Dulled the conscious of I, that was composed and compromised for bits and pieces of anothers' interpretation

Shined light on the darkness and lived a life searching for the truth, patiently waiting

On the revelation, revealing that there could only be one

One conscience, one master, one creator and many servants or slaves to the evil force that would rather have none

Would rather seek, kill, and destroy rather then bow down to the being from which it existed

Seeking purpose in living by attempting to live as gods, when living was the purpose, how could we have missed it

This evil force manipulated mankind out of vanity, causing mankind in turn to be just as vain

Parasites feasting of the flesh and soul like syphilis, driving men and women insane

Destroying such a beautiful creation, using the creators name in vain

Unconscious and emotional, but I could feel all the pain, and as though a weight was lifted
Darkness shed light, eyes tight like the lid on this life, death was the gateway to life, and I didn’t resist

15 comments:

Miss.Stefanie said...

THIS WAS BEAUTIFUL!

Stara said...

That was DEEP!

FAV LINE: Conscious, not logical or emotional cause when my heart and brain vanished, thoughts and feelings did with it...

Follow Me...

kmX said...

Damn this was deep.
I loved this post &
the pic is dope. Lighting
is on point!

Mista Jaycee said...

Very interesting piece and use of imagery. I like the way you flipped a hip hop cadence while writing the lines.
Jaycee

Miss.Stefanie said...

BTW:I so cannot find you on C.J's myspace anymore :(

Taylorgotbeats said...

unconscious and emotional but I could feel all the pain, I like this alot

A.R. said...

hello dahling. =]
& this was very well written.

Reggie said...

Let me find out...too much for me!!!!! Loves it!!!:0

seamstress said...

I am blown away...beautiful and deep and dark all at the same time

True talent

1st time here, will be back too

JuJu said...

awh; that was deep. i like!!

Charles said...

good...no GREAT stuff. I definitely like it.

Brothers Blog said...

WOW! That was too deep. Great words. Favorite line is this:

"Shined light on the darkness and lived a life searching for the truth, patiently waiting"

so poetic

tianam0nique.--* said...

"Seeking purpose in living by attempting to live as gods, when living was the purpose, how could we have missed it"

dope ass line. I read it like 6 times n got a different feeling each time I did.

very lovely.

=]

Jervis said...

WOOOOOOWWWW

Jasmine Hormes said...

I SEE U!
your just on your writing tip over there missy!

imissu!